As I sit here at my table this morning- drinking a helpful cup of Starbucks Coffee- I am frustrated to the core. To be honest I’m really ticked off. Last night I saw three of my struggling friends cuffed and taken away for public drunkenness. This morning I listened as another struggled with lying voices and mental confusion. And I just finished talking with another friend who believes that suicide would be “easier” and who does not see nor want to break the generational curse that looms over his head.

I’m frustrated because I feel like I can do nothing. I share the love of Jesus, I love through action the best I can, and as I am able I try to help financially with their needs.

Love is tough, to say the least!

I want transformation now! I don’t want to wait- and right now feel like it is taking all I can to not explode.

God did not promise that it would be easy. In fact he said that we would have to pick up and carry our cross daily. I honestly thought that it was a figure of speech, not the burden that it actually is!

But in the midst of my tantrum I hear the still small voice of God saying “Ryan, I am with you. I see their hurt too. I love them even more than you do. And while you don’t understand it- I do. Continue to walk with me, stay close to me and I will restore your heart and renew your joy. Persevere in prayer and the breakthroughs will come.”

I say- THANKS GOD.

Ryan